The secret is I'm really not feeling Easter this year. Technically last Easter was the first without Mom, but frankly I was still really processing her not being gone it didn't feel like it was. We had spring break, and as usual I didn't get a thing I wanted to accomplish done. I didn't do Easter Baskets this year, I didn't dye eggs. I just didn't feel like it.
I did however make little bags of candy for everyone. I sat at the kitchen table counting jelly beans, hershey kisses and hershey miniatures making sure everyone had even amounts. Something Mom would have done for sure.
On Good Friday this year I actually participated in service. But I sat there thinking to myself, Mom was here last Good Friday. I remember last year one of the women from church gave me a huge hug comforting me, little did I know Mom had less than 12 hours of life left. I wonder if she knew.
So even though we've passed the 1st year it doesn't seem like it.
I hope you all have a happy and blessed Easter, even if you don't feel like celebrating like I do.
